I am interested in how other people process music that they listened to in the past and currently. To me music has always represented my moods and the things that were going on in life. When I listen to an old song it brings up the old feelings and I can literally feel like I've been placed back in time. I also can distinctly remember the exact songs that went along with certain years. I've always played music as if it were theme music and I'm in a movie. Interested to hear thoughts from other people.
I'm posting a kind of timeline for music that represents my life so far.
Ages 3-6 (rough numbers but about right). I can remember putting this album on and this song would always blast way too loud and I loved it. I doubt I fully understood it, but related to the darkness in her voice. I remember spinning in the living room with my eyes closed until I would fall on the floor. It gives an eerie feeling where you still feel like you're spinning after you have fallen.
Sometime between elementary school and middle school. My younger years are actually less foggy than this time period because I was extremely miserable at these ages, but I do remember playing this album. This song kind of sums it up for me because I absolutely loved Yeats. He was my favorite poet. I also loved any sort of fantasy. I would read stacks of fantasy books every day (probably why I can't actually remember much. All I remember is devouring books like Lord of The Rings etc). I also started writing my own fantasy books and poems during this time.
Age 13. I played David Gray albums all year. This song stands out. It brings up the deep longing and melancholy I felt, as if I was missing something and could never know what it was. I remember going to the city with my parents and we'd always drive home at night. I'd be playing this song on my mp3 player and could see the lights of the city spreading out through the valley. It's a feeling like no other. Simultaneously extremely lonely while also euphoric. A completely unfettered feeling of longing for something you can't understand.
Age 14 I'm posting two important songs.
This song encompasses a lot. The starting saxophone piece is something I can never rid from my mind because it also encompasses the deep longing that I felt for many years in an indescribable way. When I think of saxophone I think of this song. The lyrics also pierced me because I could not comprehend how people just ran around frantically bound to their jobs. Also this portion of the song stands out:
"And fear is such a vicious thing
It wraps me up in chains
Find out, find out
What this fear is about
Find out, find out"
I was highly wrapped up into extreme agonizing fear that I would never be capable of working like normal people to begin with.
This song is the second song. I used to play the Joshua Tree album almost every day. This song again encompasses the constant longing for something I did not understand.
Age 15. I would play this song on repeat. I was homeschooled and I had online videos to watch but I'd mute the videos and play this song on repeat instead. I also read 1984 around this time which this song is about and it's one of my favorite books ever.
I also used to play this song on repeat and cry. It got to the utter failure and aloneness I felt. I felt like there was no way I'd ever survive on my own.
Age 16. I would play both of the songs below on repeat. I was utterly obsessed with a guy in another country. The feeling of longing for something I didn't understand was replaced by a painful longing for a person (definitely a much better feeling to be honest. I came more awake with resolve to conquer my fears because I had something tangible to fight for)
Age 17. I played a lot of Mumford and Sons songs. I had a strong sense of resolve to succeed and take my power back.
Age 18. Everything collapsed between me and that guy. I felt black and like everything had been sucked out of me. Constant anger 24/7.
Age 19. new hope and new beginnings. The year I started college. I would play East of Eden over and over. A guy I dated used to play it over and over. It gives a feeling of euphoria and magic, not in a bad way. It just gave a sense of running towards finding myself again.
This is the song I dedicated to my current boyfriend that year when we were having problems.
I also used to play this song on repeat. I'll just post the lyrics. It symbolized returning back to just ambiguous human form versus the vampire I felt I was the year before
I heard from God today, and she sounded just like me.
What have I done, and who have I become.
I saw the Devil today, and he looked a lot like me.
I looked away, I turned away!
Arms wide open, I stand alone.
I'm no hero, and I'm not made of stone.
Right or wrong, I can hardly tell.
I'm on the wrong side of heaven, and the righteous side of hell.
The wrong side of heaven, and the righteous side, the righteous side of hell.
Age 20 and here I'll stop, although I could go on, but this marked the transition into using the full weight of my power. This song symbolized the realization I could carry things along effortlessly in my path
I'm posting a kind of timeline for music that represents my life so far.
Ages 3-6 (rough numbers but about right). I can remember putting this album on and this song would always blast way too loud and I loved it. I doubt I fully understood it, but related to the darkness in her voice. I remember spinning in the living room with my eyes closed until I would fall on the floor. It gives an eerie feeling where you still feel like you're spinning after you have fallen.
Sometime between elementary school and middle school. My younger years are actually less foggy than this time period because I was extremely miserable at these ages, but I do remember playing this album. This song kind of sums it up for me because I absolutely loved Yeats. He was my favorite poet. I also loved any sort of fantasy. I would read stacks of fantasy books every day (probably why I can't actually remember much. All I remember is devouring books like Lord of The Rings etc). I also started writing my own fantasy books and poems during this time.
Age 13. I played David Gray albums all year. This song stands out. It brings up the deep longing and melancholy I felt, as if I was missing something and could never know what it was. I remember going to the city with my parents and we'd always drive home at night. I'd be playing this song on my mp3 player and could see the lights of the city spreading out through the valley. It's a feeling like no other. Simultaneously extremely lonely while also euphoric. A completely unfettered feeling of longing for something you can't understand.
Age 14 I'm posting two important songs.
This song encompasses a lot. The starting saxophone piece is something I can never rid from my mind because it also encompasses the deep longing that I felt for many years in an indescribable way. When I think of saxophone I think of this song. The lyrics also pierced me because I could not comprehend how people just ran around frantically bound to their jobs. Also this portion of the song stands out:
"And fear is such a vicious thing
It wraps me up in chains
Find out, find out
What this fear is about
Find out, find out"
I was highly wrapped up into extreme agonizing fear that I would never be capable of working like normal people to begin with.
This song is the second song. I used to play the Joshua Tree album almost every day. This song again encompasses the constant longing for something I did not understand.
Age 15. I would play this song on repeat. I was homeschooled and I had online videos to watch but I'd mute the videos and play this song on repeat instead. I also read 1984 around this time which this song is about and it's one of my favorite books ever.
I also used to play this song on repeat and cry. It got to the utter failure and aloneness I felt. I felt like there was no way I'd ever survive on my own.
Age 16. I would play both of the songs below on repeat. I was utterly obsessed with a guy in another country. The feeling of longing for something I didn't understand was replaced by a painful longing for a person (definitely a much better feeling to be honest. I came more awake with resolve to conquer my fears because I had something tangible to fight for)
Age 17. I played a lot of Mumford and Sons songs. I had a strong sense of resolve to succeed and take my power back.
Age 18. Everything collapsed between me and that guy. I felt black and like everything had been sucked out of me. Constant anger 24/7.
Age 19. new hope and new beginnings. The year I started college. I would play East of Eden over and over. A guy I dated used to play it over and over. It gives a feeling of euphoria and magic, not in a bad way. It just gave a sense of running towards finding myself again.
This is the song I dedicated to my current boyfriend that year when we were having problems.
I also used to play this song on repeat. I'll just post the lyrics. It symbolized returning back to just ambiguous human form versus the vampire I felt I was the year before
I heard from God today, and she sounded just like me.
What have I done, and who have I become.
I saw the Devil today, and he looked a lot like me.
I looked away, I turned away!
Arms wide open, I stand alone.
I'm no hero, and I'm not made of stone.
Right or wrong, I can hardly tell.
I'm on the wrong side of heaven, and the righteous side of hell.
The wrong side of heaven, and the righteous side, the righteous side of hell.
Age 20 and here I'll stop, although I could go on, but this marked the transition into using the full weight of my power. This song symbolized the realization I could carry things along effortlessly in my path
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